Resurrection of Metamorphasis

Got to do what i got to do!

2010-05-03T23:08:00.002+08:00

Hi all, yup i know some people are bugging me to blog.. so i will ok!

My life for the past few months has been a long and painful journey and i appericate the people who loves me and concern for me! I thank one person who showed me a good time when we are attached but sadly we didnt last. I am being a bastard that i use you as a rebound but my love for you never change.. Since you decide to move on i will too!

I ended a friendship too, with a good friend cause i really feel that we cant work things out anymore and whatever i am trying to do i am always wrong! I really miss those times but i just think is times up! I hope you really see what i really meant! And hope you are happy! I am no longer going to feel pain :D the pain where you can never understand!

Quote for everyone: If he/she is stupid to leave you, you should be smart enought to let her/him go!
Nights everyone!

The Gurdian Angels!

2009-12-20T19:34:00.003+08:00

I got alot of pain and help from alot of people this month and i am gratefull, i want to thank all my friends and my family... tomorrow i have camp and at the 23 dec is my performance and i am worried... Haven been practicing much! I think 28 going overseas again hope it might be the last... It really tiring! But as long that person is fine i am glad ahaha! I can work better now:D Ok going home now bye bye people AHHA SEE YOU ALL SOON...

Worry sick!

2009-12-20T02:19:00.002+08:00

I dont know i have a bad feeling today! Just so worried for someone hope that person is having fun.. Going overseas next week, hope it works:D ahaha Getting better each day but very worried hope that person can get back to me soon! Why dont i feel this way sooner sigh... i just have to prove the worth by time bah! I going to sleep now nights blog! and sweet dreams!

Thinking to much its like a Drug!

2009-12-13T09:43:00.004+08:00

I need to go to a rehab, feeling lonely today, and abit worried i dont know why i am worried at all, but i have always been when comes to the person that i love stays late outside, maybe it wasnt noticed...but what to do i cant do anything about it i am really stuck! I shouldnt have seen that drug and fallen in love with the drug!

Its been days i have paid any attention to it but its like i cant, in my heart is aching and i wanted to cry inside! Everytime i woke up i cant go back to sleep, it's been a month now and i have suffered and i have to kick the habit.. i talked to myself i cant talked about the past anymore, i cant be compasssionate at all now, cause when i took the drug it was heartless enough to hurt me more than it bring me joy! I have thought for the drug and i started to forgive cause i use to love it and i understand what is the going on, but does the drug thought for me or just thought of itself as a sweet that brings joy! The person who loves the drug speak good things! People who know the true colors of the drug hates it.... i still love the drug, it's foolish love, i dont need to treassure the drug since it hurted me, but i want it to know its wrong to hurt people this way... Saying things that oh i am sweet try me after that oh to bad you got the worst out of me... Trying to lie to oneself can never give you the truth about yourself or hide from anyone else!

Thats nothing to forgive if there is no gulit inside, Covering and telling yourself that it brings joy to people will not work... Cause as much as you try you are still a Drug! So admit it and then learn from it, that's my final gift to you! If i dont love you i will leave you and let you ROT and you know i cant let you be like this,thats why i scold!

(The day you fallen for someone else is the day you cheated!)
(I really tried to support you but you dont want!, what can i do now?)

Days of Misery!

2009-07-04T12:03:00.002+08:00

Hi peeps!

Sorry didnt update for very long time, i was MIA for the past whole two months. First i went to Genting highlands around May 12 i think and got back at erm May 15 and so after a few days after the trip my mom send me to Thailand to do praying.. and Wow lots of stuff to tell but i cant update now no Pics haha!

Well i miss my friends alot even through i saw them like not long ago.. I FEEL Lonely, like am i the only one on earth. Not sure why? People and Friends i care the most are always away from me i just dont know why? its not like i didnt try my best to make them happy when ever they are with me. I tend to ask question with I, I did try my best, Did I do anything wrong, I know i did the right thing.

But all this wasnt selfless thoughts of I, ME, MUA. Its simply saying one person makes a big differents. If i cant make my friends happy with me, it makes me feel sad and mainly its my fault that i always felt. i not sure, i guess i just trying to hard i guess. even i want to meet up with old friends its like a magnet repells each other away... Not sure why? tell me some one am i the one should be changing even more or just me should be deletled away from this world.
(P.S this is a problems i face and i am in a really bad shape! help if you can :D)

Busy Road!

2009-05-05T14:12:00.002+08:00

Hi Peps!

Sigh, this few days i am running here and there like crazy! Sian collecting medication, Tutoring, meeting friends.. And the worst thing i am paying Adult Fare... (@_@).

Lols Fainting, and soon i am moving to my Dad's house to stay soon due to the Chinese Phase: "A hill cannot have two tigers" I am one tiger and the second one is my MOTHER! I tried talking to her nicely but she have to roar the whole house down.. really tired and stress i really cant take it any more.. sigh!!!!!!!

Oh any way last Friday was really Fun, went out with David, Hong Yuan, Nigel, Xian Yong including his friends and my friend Nick Chin.. We were all playing L4D
(Xian Yong and Friends Vs Dav, Hong, Nigel, Chin and Me).
We were like very feirce with our attacks lols was a very good Game! And sorry Xian Bro could not go out with ya after LAN need to be back home..T.T

To Troubled and confused peeps out there!:

Well all i got to say is that your heart is Beating, when its hurt or Harmed it will not be the same and you will feel so dead like a leaf falling to the ground. Shocked and stun thats when it stops for a while.. Soon everyone to you is invisible, and life is all about you ,yourself and no one else... So just Give up! Give in to Life, its Life! Destinity and Fate are arranged!

But...

Aren't we Human! Living beings able to move and learn. Able to face obstacles, with Soul and Knowledge! I know that I am not alone! I have Love ones my Family and my friends. Its my Life i chose how to Live my Life! And Destinity And Fate are arranged? Yes by me and only me to arrange, with the help of my Love ones! And givng up? With LIFE or MYSELF? Only YOU! have the Answer!

Ok peeps! that all hope it helps ya...
See you all soon byes! ^^

Sleepless Night!

2009-04-25T06:01:00.003+08:00

Tag reply!
xian yong: hi vist me more ok haha!
Darling Girl Steph: Sure sure you plain ok heheh ( evil laugh) :D..

Hey Peeps!

Wow i have not sleep for one whole day because one thing on my mind that i had yesterday was..
Telematch.. wa i tell you guys its really stress to sleep for every two mins and keep reminding yourself TELEMATCH!..TELEMATCH!..TELEMATCH!..

I am seriously stress la.. haha anyway i and david went to help out yesterday's Telematch and as always we try our best and give our all but it wasnt good enough and EIT manage to get third... Sigh dissapointing but hey, at least i know i gave my all and did not hold back i was ok with it .. But it wasnt easy for some other BL friends to get over it as its a big Blow for them....

So after that we went to disstress ourselves by going to safria to play pool.. ahha it was fun and went for dinner and rush back to david house to watch "Ping Pang Yuan" lols..
( By the way i have been staying David's house for like 3 weeks >.<)

To my Dear BLs
I like to nag! but why? Cause i want all of you to be better than me, better than other leaders, i want you all to be the best but not the worst. We seniors have tried our best have you? Have you all tried your fulliest.. That you all will not regret trying to be the best! well overall i want to say thank you to you all who help out.. thank you very much... and Good luck for up coming Exams! Loves!!

Ok thats all Peeps nights! opps i mean morning!

MORNING! with chores!

2009-04-22T11:32:00.002+08:00

Tag reply!
Ah long: so.... happy now! lols

Morning Peeps!

Amazing i woke up like early in the morning at 10am ( i am serious, it's very early >.<)
wash my face and brush my teeth.. and do davids chores.. ( cause i am staying at his house :D )
After one hour 30 mins of sweeeping, moping, cleaning.. and i tell you i am very hungry now! He owe big time ok i am like his elite Granny sia... Ha ha anyway i feel like killing myself.. went to CMPB two days ago and my guards enlistment was cancelled due to my knee.. WTF, i want to go Guards stupid Shit...

sigh need to go back at 20 july dots.. i go back in total of 4 times, and its far. i rather sign on with them and work as clerk better sigh...

Oh oh i am very excited to go for the ITE telematch.. hehee can see my juniors.. YAY! Juniors must Jia you ok ( Jia You means work hard :D ). i will give you support ok, i got your backs..........

haha ok i guess i have stop here need to cook lunch now... cannot take it anymore..

BYE Peeps! :D

Pointless?

2009-04-15T12:13:00.003+08:00

hello guys afternoon, Sians i got my beauty sleep like 4am in the morning got DC from msn.. After that i dont feel like logging in very tired... Anyway i was busy helping out in ITE during their oreintation this pass two days..

At first i was thinking why should i go down when its like no longer my business as they have already taken over.

But i took quite a while to like get in my head that BL is like family no matter where ever i am always still there as there is the only place that i would only go too even when i am sad, happy, angry, and very uncontrollable highness of mine. My heart is always there lor, no one can take it away from me.. no one ok..

Yesterday, after taking to Mdm Tan that took 2 hours of our time, it was like 7 30 pm already and our juniors were like waiting for us and complaining saying there stomach are singing, LOLS thanks for waiting anyway, we went out to eat at KFC at Tampines.
Damm Fun sia, talk about Anime, people who keep stabbing us at our back, and laugh at each other.. wa i dont know why i can think this is pointless when i have so many happiness with them .

I really want to thank david for like Dragging me to ITE, if not i will not be witnessing such bond between me and my new BLs..

TO ALL BLS
Please strive for everthing you do and dont give up, give in to one another like a Family and soon you will recieve Happiness from one another.. The seniors will always be there to lend you a hand so do call oks...
LOVE YOU ALL !

Return to Blog!!!

2009-04-05T14:47:00.002+08:00

Guess who?

No i am not David, for this time i am back!!

hahah lol long time no see my dearest blog... its like i left it in the ancient ruins for a very long decade. LOLS ;P. Well i am here to blog and changing my blog skin soon and i might be able to blog everyday due to internet service that i am about to have.. The only reason i am blogging now is because i am going back home soon yay! And manage to cope comp for awhile to blog abit :)ehehhe... Well i have to apologise that i have been MIA, but it's feaking irrtaing that some people keep telling you not to blog now as in no one wants to read anymore.. Hey Mr i dont blog for my attention seeking programe i blog is due to people who are interested to read. i dont care if people doesnt read at all but people like you can just FUCK OFF! ok i am very piseed to people who likes to brag about there counts ok so shut your Fucking Gap. thanks :D

(PEOPLE WITH HEART ATTACK OR SENSITIVE TO VULGAR LANGUAGE PLEASE DO NOT READ FROM THE STARTING OF THE HIGH LIGHTED SENTENCE) Thanks!

Ok got to go bye peeps!! and see you all soon my friends...

From david

2008-12-06T13:44:00.002+08:00

Haohao!
Happy birthday!
I am david here to update his blog.

Hao hao is busy with his thing so cannot update.
He just completed his M5. So yeah, he preparing for portfolio already.

Once again
HAPPY BIRTHDAY HAOHAO!

Love you oh!

Welcome back

2008-09-30T08:08:00.005+08:00

Hello Honeys!

WELCOME BACK FROM CAMBODIA!

HAHA FAINTS
Gees kidding. later all the people heart attack. LOLs

Erm hello guys.
David's here again.

Hao is back from cambodia today.
So yeah.

WELCOME BACK GUYS =DD

Missing And Loving you all

2008-09-14T04:57:00.006+08:00

Hey all, hahaha very long i didnt blog lol and i feel kinder werid this days because i going Cambodia Next Wednesday.

I will miss all of course my Baby JUNIORS BL( They rock). My Best friends Dannel, Corey(Currently at Aus) Melisa, Cass and Deb not forgeting (My Dota Cakyi)Nick Chin, Jonas, Gaius, Donald...

BL Excos and friends Jiekie(girlfriend), wen xing(pinkie Princess), Jane(Jie jie) Nicol, Grabriel, Alex, Adrain...

Joanne, Susan and Ruo Ning and other Fellow Class mates LOL! Not forgetting my family haha...

And other's like nuds vocal training group that i have not mention you always will be in my heart..

I will be at Changi Airport AT 4.30PM WOW! i dont need to sleep Already. I hope people will send me off but like its so FCKING early lol guess not hahaha.. I like super want attention man asking people to send me off so i put it at my blog lol hahha.. Kidding... But i want hahah.
(I Fcking attention Seeker man!!! Booo!!!)

And oh my M8 thank god i Have a great Director, he is really nice and he came out this ideal of a photo shoot of each indivisual Charcter and is super cool but i suck at modeling. Sian!!!!!

The pic is Great but the Model is Fcking Ugly lol!!!

Anyway its a great ideal so thanks Boss!!!Bet you spent alot of time Photoshopping this pic hahhaha.. Thanks man...

Ok now its time for me to go but i will miss all and love you guys i will be back soon so i hope i will come back in one piece not in pieces lol.. will be going with my new friends and my God Bro so hope it will be a pleasent trip so good night and sweet dreams. Cambodia Here i come woo hoo!!!

Special thanks: David my god Bro for helping me updating my Previous blogg lol!!!

A update

2008-09-03T00:38:00.005+08:00

Okay guess who am I?
I am not Jia Hao.

Hmmm I am DAVID!
laugh*
Okay I am here to help my godbrother blog because he has been super busy.
I helped him changed his songs too.
So sorry to those that wanted him to link you up so I helped him to link up already.
Do tagged more even though he never update so often.

Jia Hao has been busy with his M8 and he have just done the banner up for the YEP 2008.
He will be flying off for cambodia on the 17 Sept. and 11 Sept got NS check up.
Hope you guys like the banners as I also did help leh! :P
laugh**

I want to thank him for whatever he did and said during my dark days.
He has been there whenever I need a listener. I will treasure you no matter what brother.
I will treat you like a real brother even though we are not born from the same parents. HAHA
Yup I just want my godbrother to do well for whatever he do.
Don't bully him okay? He is a nice person.

And of course do rest well when you could and have enough rest.

Take care all readers.
God bless and nights.

P.S: He did not know I update for him.

Back From the Dead

2008-07-12T01:53:00.002+08:00

LOL! ok lets see 2 to 3 months of MIA Wow!!!! I am Sure Pro..
Sorry if anyone is reading my Blog and have been waiting for me to update.. I apologize for that, but here i am.. TA TA TA!!!

Sigh Problems la.. my Family, my God Brother, my Project and might as well say my life..

MY FAMILY
My most loveable and most noble person in my family, my mum. I think she is suffering from alot of perssure. My borther and sister were like the cost of the problem to all her stress, my sis in normal ad and my brother is having N levels. They are having Tution together and they both kinder fight during lesson and the next thing i know the tutor went out off the house and called my mum. When my mum got back she started taking sleeping pills and cordin bleu(acholol), it was qutie dangerous and she even took our offering wine for our GOD and drank a mouthfull. I had a heart attack so i skipped monday lessons and took care of my mum...(not a pleasent sight on the next day)

MY GOD BRO
Well we are like super close brothers and we even know what are our dislikes and likes. He have been really nice to me and he really deserves some credit so i intro my Family to him and he got quite close to them actually. Broght him to KTV and he is a pretty good singer i must say, my mum was asking him to join project super star.. we will get ready the banners hahas... But recently i got to find out his dad went to the hosipital regarding of his kidney i was so worried.. i hope he is ok and get well soon... All the best!!

MY PROJECT
Wa sian sa... Plains changed i swear what i and my classmate Joanne had done went down the drain!! My teacher told me that all of us are to do a new story, i was very FINE!
Fck up
Insecure
Neurotic
Emotional.....
Just fine....
So the story that I and Joanne Written i gave it to her so i have to create a new one sigh no choice...(Thanks God Bro for helping me with my story board)

Trying so hard to live on.. but at least i still got the good side of life..
Ok guys that is all i have for tonight i will Blog soon ok bye bye AND Nights....

Surprise!

2008-06-29T23:45:00.002+08:00

Okay readers!
Here is someone you guys don't know.
But I bet you will know sooner or later.

hello! I am david here. Jia Hao is my Vice-chairman in Bridge Family. So I am helping Jia Hao to blog as he has been super ultra busy lately. He would like to apologize for that.
This is my blog.
http://www.musicalledavid.blogspot.com
Check it out too!! =D

First of all, why am I here?

I have just helped Jia Hao to changed his blog skin.
Plus will be updating you guys some of his upcoming events.

This holiday Jia Hao got nothing much going on but he will be busy with his Final Year Project.
Tomorrow, he will be going to meet Joan for his M8(Final Year Project) meeting with his Juniors Mun Yee and Xinyi.

Will be finding Kenneth in their Chalet after his Project.

Erm I think that's all.
This is the most upcoming ones.
So yup, the rest he will update tomorrow.

Goodnight peeps.!!
Hope you have a wonderful holiday!!

Chiong Chiong Chiong!!!

2008-04-13T04:00:00.002+08:00

WA...... alot to do at the weekends hahah.. have been staying over david house for like every weekends during the holidays... cause home is like SUPER boring and i am not that stay home type of person so need to have fun... hahah lol!!! CAM WHORE MOST of the TIME.....

Oh yes on the 10th of April Mass training for all BLs in ITE college East. I am really really proud of my Jan intake 2008 Juniors. Because they really tried their very BEST to be enthru for the stupid energizer that I gave them. LOL. I really hope that they would carry out their duties as a bridge leader for the orientation. As they do not know what they are getting into. But, I do have faith in their abilities as a part of my bridge leader family. I would support them till the fullest of my entire life!! I really love them alot.!! As they really prove me that they are all ready for the orientation. And they take the seniors seriously. I hope. LOL. So after the wonderful time with my juniors including the irritating throat of mine cause of the SHOUTING, I have to attend a singing class halfway during the training. As my throat was about to burst into flames. My teacher was ignoring my existence, due to my voice. After the long hours, I had a fever. Went back to david's house, feel like fainting.. thank god for my Brother David he took care of me and gave me a panadol and help me answer my msn hell calls. So thanks Gor Gor for your Care it took me a day to recover.... Love Ya... And yes i have like Tons of video that i didnt really touch due to Bridge Leader Plannings.. And My Good friend Alex... Thanks for Helping me for the BL video, he is part of my success for my Dutie as a Media officer so Alex i really really OWE you alot...So THIS IS TO YOU!!!! Thanks ALEX!!!

SIGH!!!! School reopening Going to miss my stay at davids place ( which i am still by the way LOL!) And his porridge lol....

Holidays bye bye!!T.T....

I never knew i got so many friends

2008-04-05T01:08:00.010+08:00

I had a bad day since last Friday every thing bad came to my life since my Grandfather went to the hosiptal saying he might have cancer on his left leg, i got some misunderstanding from my friends or maybe it was my fault that i made my friendship worst to the extend that i could not control my emotions....

I went to some resting places which are my closest friends who knew my problems and i shared with them. They told me, that i was just to nice to accept whatever i been told... but no one really understands anyway so i just take it as my own reasons....

so i have always to look on the bright side of life and i did, and my friends were the only ones who made me laugh all day so thanks guys and of course girlfriends.... from the bottom of my heart.

To my dearest Shifu, Jenna go Taiwan must enjoy yourself ok will miss you like hell thanks for your advice.. make sure got Boyfriend if not don't come back hahah.... okok i know you will scold me you kuku bird you!!!!

And my dearest Auntine, Serene you going poly now really happy for you congrats also and you say i should keep my drama mama attitude ok sure...( OK SIGN) your trade mark heheh... will miss you lah must miss me ok lol!!!!

Days are like Years

2008-03-02T03:20:00.003+08:00

Sorry for the Long update... have been busy, comp not really avaliable for two weeks hahah...
Ok i swear this is going to be a gramp ma sorry cause many things happen..... Fair Warning haha

On the 20 Feb till the 22 Feb, i was incharge of the january intake grauation which are my seniors, hahah goodbye all the best for your future going to miss you all... and ya thank god for guardain angels, manage to get enough helpers... i thought i would get screwed hahaha not that way la so dirty....

So after that i volunted to go to the parliment for the debate for bugget and the safety of Singapore since some malay guy came in... Lol

So last sat i was invited to go for an audition for a musicial play Grease and there is three part of audition first is dance, singing and acting and the max points is 3 points ahhah as usual acting 3 points, singing 1.5 points and 2 points for dance..... so in total i got in hahah yes but more stress so must work hard....

Today was my first practice for Grease we were playing rapport games and watching Grease the movie... and ya all the songs and dance will be in the play accept the vulgar languge ahahah. So went out with my Big Brother and his friend Cheryl a very nice girl we all had fun talking and joking and we catch a movie meet the spartans and OMG its stupid....... i wasted 9.50 for that 50cents show oh God... and ya i meet alot of people my classmate Renny and his girl, jason, some st pats and sji like matthew han, ian and more wa its like small world...

So talked and chat with my good pal Aaron in malaysia studying got girlfriend already congras lol Found out we got lots in common hahaha really funny about today so any way i will try to update every week la good night very tired already and sorry PLB could not go your BBQ and

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JIE KIE ! 18 years old already

Blazing Blazer

2008-02-03T02:00:00.000+08:00

Blaze can burn or it

can warm people when they are in need, are you blazing?

Or are you burning someone?

It starts by a spark so now chose...It's like to serve or not to serve.

Blazing Blazer that's what i called...

My second time wearing ITE East Blazer i felt the top of the world, it was really great and all but not the part where i have to stand under the sun for like 5 hours!!!

I was serving this GEP for my school while i have to wait for buses to arrive the school.... its boring and sigh boring thats all i learned... and just top it all off after standing under sun running around the school, a teacher scolded me... wa that was the last straw that breaks my back... but what to do its my job.

After the whole day, got meeting wa i tell you ar my life now very boring got alot of meeting now people call me geek wa.........(wait thats me)

Sigh so sad my friend birthday today couldn't give him what he wanted as a outhing i hope he still enjoy his outhing dough it wasn't good... to my dearest friend Nicholas Chin I wish you a Happy 15th Birthday.....

Rise above and the stronger we are

2008-01-19T21:23:00.000+08:00

Sigh... i will always say, not even a ha at my face

when my friends say hi, i would say none......

when troubles come it seems so young.

nothing can bring me a laugh cause..... My Reasons conquer everything.

In Ite College East (Simei) we have this Telematch every year between Schools. We vesus other schools by playing games and we cheer until our Lungs explode. Saddy our school lost by 10 points can you belive it. Just 10 points, and we could be the ones holding the Cup. Any way its ok we can try our best next time cause i belive that all of us can do much better... hahha i will bet my life for BL's as my faith never dies for them.

As Vice Head of BL i would not accept failure for my group members and my head of BL David.... I will make April a winning road for us all.... of SICT

But i must say winning isn't everything, and Congraulations to ENG you pick a good fight but we are going to get you hehehehehe........

Today Really want to thanks David for making my blogg so nice,better than the previous one... i chat with a lot of friends today and one of them could not even remember me Sigh... So sad so played around by sms and still could not guess is me so oh well can't do much so forget it. Another one of my good friend, Boyfriend about to die From Cancer Just so sad heard tears over the phone.... it's a bad year to start out...

Hey!!! they will always be Sun when there's Rain...

Will look forward for it....... Happines here i come

Beinging and the End

2008-01-06T01:23:00.000+08:00

TO MY SPECIAL TEACHER AND FRIEND M.C KING R.I.P

there is no one can take your place in class C. WE all will miss you and hope to see you in heaven. Acting is never easy and needness to say so as living in real life, now that you left us, how i wish you were just acting. I hope i did you proud as a student for acting i will carry on my very best to bring your name up as my teacher.

JUST GOT BACK FROM CAMP..

wow... the camp was so fun not like the other camps i go too cause this is organise by Ite. Most of my camps that i go too were LASALLIAN camps.(But LLTC 2004, IPOH and APLYC still rocks..opps....)

this are a few pics taken yesterday during dinner

lol.. had great time with my new friends

Poser... hahaha this is my group called HUH? HUH? ya! its really HUH?

ok this Pei Lin my Mentor a.k.a Elder sister. Me and my group like to tease her, always call her aunty... But she is always our Youngest Jie Jie lor.... hahah. Very sad la she have to leave early we sent her off from our school like past midnight, but we could not move beyond certain boundries so we told which way to walk out to take a taxi as usual lor... very autine.. ask her walk straight she walk left AHYOH! i called her and told her to walk striaght again from the starting point. Wa in Singapore she can get lost already percentage of 100% on that night she told us she is going to Malaysia... -.-lll i recalculated like 200% that she will get lost...Lets see her age would be.... Better don't say She will run Back from Malaysia and kill me...O.O

Those were happy moments and during CAMP people always say actor actor because my ep for life story came out on TV moblie so ya didn't expect it that one of the mentor want my autograph but i lie my way through( i think). But i feel something was wrong, due to the fact of people reconising me as an actor i started thinking about my teacher M.C king. I felt so disturb, when i was celebrating my grandma birthday during dinner, my brother told me he was DIED!!!!!!!

I couldn't belive my ears and mostly myself telling me that he is an actor, i think he is acting.... but the facts is still at my face the newspaper said M.C king the comedian Pass away... i called my acting classmates and they say they already know.... I just Found his location for his funeral its near my house (Cassia Crescent near Old Airport Road) i GUESS i would be visting him... And may us all remember him....

What the FISH?

2008-01-01T15:36:00.000+08:00

As the days pass by, the more i grow.

As the days pass by, the more i suffer.

As the days pass by, the pain is even stronger.

As the days pass by, the joy i had fades away.

And as the days pass by, my Negative thoughts kept me this way.

Who am i ?

Your Emotions.....

Dam i hardly use the internet. Due to the problems i have....

And my Blog will soon fade away.

This also not good cause i got reaction from people like har? you got blog?

DOTZ...... i got a blog like last year but i didnt touch it, due to internet problems so i created a new one.

So What the fish... ya!

Been busy went to David house to do BL today oh by the way i have already graduate from my previous school SPS(St Pat"s School). Now in Ite College East hahah! (EXCUSE ME! i am smart ok!) Already my first year, made my way to Vice president of BL(Bridge Leader=)and yet College Media Officer.But more stress so what i can handle one la (Jia Hao= Lair).

Again What The Fish?

But Emotions Can Be controlled all i need is my friends and support.. thats all so any one feeling down out there look around you, good things are already out there happening only if you dare to take it.

So What The Fish?

Just say it's my Fish Baby lol.....

Happy New Year 2008 Wish you all the best and have a blessed year!

The Awakening

2007-12-30T03:38:00.000+08:00

DARKNESS was every where even when, my eyes were opened....

And yet LIGHT seemed so limited....

Its HARD to breath....

And yet so SPACELESS... I was Struggling..... and in any moment i have to come to a point....

To choose to DIE..... or LIVE and yet DIE another time.....

This were the sentence told by a Butterfly in my dream... ridiculious isn't it.....
A Butterfly talk and talking about life and death....
Man to me this shows that life had its own way of impacting to every living thing in this world...
SO why live and not die since you know you are going to die anyway sooner or maybe yet later...
Why wait? LET'S DIE NOW...

But the talking Butterfly told me... i would have already chosen my fate a long time ago, if i die now my work will be in vain.. soon Slient took over the area and everything seemed so quite...

I closed my Eyes..

CONFUSED as always i would always be.. not understanding a single thing, the winds was blowing where i was standing high above the rocks, which they were about 20 foot away from the floor, i was ready to jump without a sweat... looking below with no regrets. And negative were my friends.

Soon a beautiful voice came to me, it sound so familiar yet so sweet, i never felt that way before it's like butterfly in my stomach which they were about to flow... I only wish that life coud be this way but coming to think of it, it slowly, slowly fades away...

"If we learn to remember the good things of life, would we still think about death?"

Soon the most irrtating sound came and dream i was came to a close......
STUPID ALARM CLOCK!