I need to go to a rehab, feeling lonely today, and abit worried i dont know why i am worried at all, but i have always been when comes to the person that i love stays late outside, maybe it wasnt noticed...but what to do i cant do anything about it i am really stuck! I shouldnt have seen that drug and fallen in love with the drug!

Its been days i have paid any attention to it but its like i cant, in my heart is aching and i wanted to cry inside! Everytime i woke up i cant go back to sleep, it's been a month now and i have suffered and i have to kick the habit.. i talked to myself i cant talked about the past anymore, i cant be compasssionate at all now, cause when i took the drug it was heartless enough to hurt me more than it bring me joy! I have thought for the drug and i started to forgive cause i use to love it and i understand what is the going on, but does the drug thought for me or just thought of itself as a sweet that brings joy! The person who loves the drug speak good things! People who know the true colors of the drug hates it.... i still love the drug, it's foolish love, i dont need to treassure the drug since it hurted me, but i want it to know its wrong to hurt people this way... Saying things that oh i am sweet try me after that oh to bad you got the worst out of me... Trying to lie to oneself can never give you the truth about yourself or hide from anyone else!

Thats nothing to forgive if there is no gulit inside, Covering and telling yourself that it brings joy to people will not work... Cause as much as you try you are still a Drug! So admit it and then learn from it, that's my final gift to you! If i dont love you i will leave you and let you ROT and you know i cant let you be like this,thats why i scold!

(The day you fallen for someone else is the day you cheated!)
(I really tried to support you but you dont want!, what can i do now?)